Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Monday, March 29, 2010


Was I that bad a Sir??, if so, I should be shot and be drummed out of the BDSM world for good.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Monday, March 22, 2010

My final thoughts and words.....

It has been pointed out to me that I have " humiliated, hurt beyond words, broke her trust " morningstar well that never was my intention ever!!

I am sorry, so very sorry for all these actions.

This matter is now closed, forever.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

It would seem, no turning back....

I thought it was going to be hard for morningstar to get over this breakup ( after I had posted THAT ad ) that she started the ball rolling by asking for time to think, then changing her status to the BDSM community without a word to me first.

But it seems she has gotten over things or least is moving on fast and you know something I am happy for her and her family ( they haven't talked to me since that night ) to know they are going to do well without me. I am sad about the family although but I do understand 100% their actions.

The only thing I don't understand is this she wrote:

" Last night a couple of friends whom i respect deeply (and am so proud to be able to call them "friend") asked me a tough question. They explained that the relationship (mine specifically) was like a V. When we were together it was the point of the V ...... very close......... and they felt i was slowly moving up the V but i hadn't moved all that far....... and they asked...... "did i want to go back down the V to the point again" (ok that was very wordy and a bit convoluted - but i hope you get the gist of the conversation) " what is " V ", is it her former lover, is it vanilla lifestyle, I just don't know ??

In any case, I am happy, like I said before, she is moving on " .... in cleaning out all the cobwebs before moving forward.. or even AS i move forward."

Have a good life morningstar....

Saturday, March 20, 2010

My thanks....

To everyone that has left a comment or two on Mine and morningstar's blogs I wish to thank you so much.

Those that have supported morningstar in her time of sadness I wish to thank you deeply as I know she was/is going to have a hard time, although it looks like she has a good handle on things, even planning trips in the near future.

Thanks again everyone.


ps: if anyone knows someone locally that wishes BDSM equipment drop Me a line.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Poof 9 years gone.....

9 years gone up in smoke and even though I know what happened, I still don't know what the hell happened all I know is my life as I knew it has now changed and I would think knot for the better.

Last week, the sh*t hit the fan, I am not going into the details like morningstar said in her blog " washing the dirty laundry " isn't the correct thing to do. She handed back My collar.

Although I know I screwed up, yet now I am scared that things are going to downhill from now on and as much as I do control things, somethings just aren't controllable.

I wish all the best to a person that didn't deserve having someone like me in her lifetime, may her next Master serve her better ( also mark her the way she always wanted, but I could never do ) than I did as she had served me over the past almost 9 years.

Poof, I am gone....